I AM NOT STUCK; I AM SURRENDERED

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My life is not perfect. I have my days of joy & laughter and I have days of challenges & trials. Either way, my life is a growing one. The past few days, I've experienced the latter. 

I'm sitting on my couch, having received the most valuable photo from my husband. 20-minutes later, I find myself on the ground with shots to my lower back. I feel stuck. I groan (great emphasis) and move my waist down from side-to-side to alleviate the pain. I try to dig my knuckles in against my lower back to temporarily relieve the pain.

Evening comes and the pain is now accompanied by a fever & not too long after, chills right before bed. I feel stuck. I cry out to God from my bed, first asking him to take away this pain. After a moment of reflection, I am reminded of the words spoken to me by God through my Pastor..."Fall in love with the will of God". My prayers have shifted to praise. Through my pain, I will praise thee God!

Am I stuck? Or does God have me in this position for a purpose? He says to "be still and know that I am God". What if my pain was for someone else's salvation? What if my pain is purposed for the sake of His Kingdom? What if my pain is to pursue Him more? 

I am physically feeling stuck as if I can't move, as if I'm bound to this bed. I hadn't really moved much actually...physically. But I can confidently say that I have been moving mountains in prayer, spiritually!! My praise turns into worship. I exalt the Lord who still finds me worthy to keep me under the shadow of His wing. Though I am laid flat, my spirit is lifted and I open my mouth to ensure my worship touches God's ears. He hears me. He delights in hearing me.  

I am not stuck. I am feeling stuck. Therefore, I am surrendered. 

The battlefield is real. We are fighting every day, pursuing restoration, unifying every part of the body that yokes them together. What does that entail? Ezekiel 37 describes a valley of dry bones and the very intricate way of how God puts them back together, piece by piece. We (the body of Christ) are a part of the greatest revival that will birth forth! And yes, it will happen in this pandemic! God works best in impossible situations. I have faith that God's plan is no match for man. God's plan is greater! It is higher! It is above our very own understanding! GOD will get all the glory!

I am surrendered. This has been an opportunity to draw closer to God. I'm going through all of this, yet, I feel close to God. You will feel God's presence the most when you are bound sick on your bed with body aches, or when you enter a fiery furnace or when you are locked in a den with lions or when you're in a belly of a fish. This feeling of being stuck has restructured my mindset to feeling surrendered. It has allowed me to realign my thoughts; realign my prayers; realign my heart. 

I am in the middle of a journey. A journey God has for me. I don't know where we're going but I trust that He's gotten me halfway from where I began and from my destination, and will continue to carry me through. 

The devil is working overtime in this hour. But my God works the morning shift, the graveyard shift and all the shifts in between!!

Galatians 6:9 And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not.




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